Hi and thank you for taking the time to read my stupid little blog post. I feel like I just couldn’t leave without a reason- especially to those who have become such good friends of mine or just a silent audience for my tweets.
As many of you can already see, a lot of people on tlist are beginning to shut down their accounts with the arrival of the new year. There are in fact, many good reasons (in my opinion) to do so.
First off, I really wanna thank you all for being at times the lone thing that makes me happy. I know it’s cheesy but you are all very special to me and I know for a fact that I will remember everyone who made the past 3 years of my life on this website so amazing. It’s the best feeling in the world to know that there is this group of people who understand you and will be there for you albeit through the internet.
I’ve really became a person that I wouldn’t have been- for the better, if it weren’t for you. I believe that because of kpop and because of our passionate community that I’ve become a very open and outgoing person contrary to the shy asswipe I was before.
But the older I get the more I start to realize that this online life is holding me back from having a real and fulfilling life outside of the internet. Not only that, but it’s also keeping me from excelling academically and that’s the part that gives me sleepless nights.
Life is starting to speed up and I really can’t deal with how fast my future is coming. Pretty soon I’ll be in college hopefully in law or medical stressing my ass off to have a good life later on and to do that I’ll require complete and utter patience and focus. I’m lacking those two qualities. It takes time to develop those things, therefore I need to start now.
In all honesty, I really don’t want to do this. It gives me so much happiness to chat and share laughs with you and it really sends a pain straight to my heart when I think about leaving. But my social life in real life needs development and frankly, I don’t want the only memories of my teenage years to be of sitting on the computer day and night.
This still sits shakily with me and there’s more than a 50% chance that I won’t be able to handle it being so abrupt but I will try. I will also keep this account (@nekorhea) and will occasionally log on to get up to date with what’s doing on in kpop and to greet you every now and then because it makes me happy. This will be an extreme test for the month of January and probably February as well. Who knows, I might come crying back and I’d appreciate you being there for me if I do.
Lastly, if we’ve really hit it off and you’d like if we continued to do so, I will be using my personal account for everyone who wants to keep in touch a little more tightly. I will tweet normally on the main account until midnight. And I’ll be using this blog along with my main blog.
Thank you again, for everything.